I remember what you said to me when I would sit there, crying over the fact that I felt I wasn’t good enough for you. That you wanted something different and that I didn’t fit the ideal woman in your mind. You made it seem like I was being irrational. Like there was no reason I should feel that way. Even when I saw you buying into the medias blatantly sexist female ideals that were shoved down my throat everyday. You said it was all in my mind.
Something men need to know about the swarm of meaningless insecurities and feelings of unworthiness that plague women everyday.
IT IS NOT ALL IN OUR MINDS.
IT IS NOT BECAUSE WE ARE JUST TOO PREOCCUPIED WITH APPEARANCE AND BODY IMAGE.
IT IS THE RESULT OF CENTURIES OF OPPRESSION AND VIOLENCE.
IT IS THE RESULT OF ACTUAL EVENTS AND PARADIGMS THAT ARE DESIGNED TO MAKE US FEEL UNWORTHY.
IT IS THE RESULT OF VICIOUS MEDIA PRESSURE EVERY SINGLE DAY THAT DEFINES OUR WORTH BY OUR SEXUAL APPEAL.
IT IS THE RESULT OF THE APPROPRIATION OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ASSAULTS SPANNING THOUSANDS OF YEARS.
WE ARE NOT CRAZY.
IT IS NOT IN OUR MINDS.
You ignorant slut.
Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible. That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn’t believe it.
I may be what some would call unstable. My thoughts are constantly provoking me emotionally, I express what I think and feel. I’m constantly changing. I’m rarely content. I dislike the world I live in and often the way I live in it. I’m disorganized and I can barely understand myself so I don’t expect others to be able to. It puts a lot of people off. Maybe that’s part of why I don’t let them in. Because they realize I’m not the sane normal person you want to be in a relationship with. Nor do I have any desire to be that.
Maybe I just don’t want to be happy. I don’t want to be content.